Showing posts with label Thots. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thots. Show all posts

Monday, November 5, 2012

Important/Special

Heard this over FM some time ago, never took it to heart then.

"Important is someone whom you can't live without; 
Special is someone you will never forget"

Today this statement kept coming into my mind, guess it's trying to remind me over and over again. You are just ''Special"

How I wish I could be both important & special.....

kk (^.^)

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Time is love

Time is love................Every moment last forever.

If you know and are only allowed to be with a person just for a short time, will you still choose to love and be with him?

My answer is yes, if the person is worth all your love. Love is no boundaries. Even for a short period I know you are worth every effort we have put in.

You have let me know what is love, it's not just about companionship. It's how we being appreciated and respect as an individual,  learn from each other and enjoying every moment together.

Now I can only walk with time, letting our love be buried deep down inside my heart.
Maybe someday we will see each other again... in heaven or on earth, my love will be with you always.


"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres." 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Sunday, September 11, 2011

My Accomplishment for Sept

Had accomplished my 2 items in the list for this month, 1st the trip to Cambodia then the D&D. Looking forward to the next trip to Kulim. Guess it gonna be filled with lot a fun too ; )

The recent trip to Cambodia, has bring along some good memories and some thinking. My mind has calmed down a lot and looking at things in a different perspective. Asking myself what have I been doing and what I have achieved for the past years. Now have learned to cherish myself more and enjoyed more. A very relaxing trip I would say.

I'm lucky to have a good companion I suppose that helps too : ) It was definitely an impromptu trip. During one of our discussion something just pop out of my mind and suddenly we decided to go Cambodia together. And at that very moment we booked the flight and confirmed the trip, in less than a day.. amazing  :D

We have common topic, in work, dance, social, etc. almost everything. Something that we shared doing together with ; ) oops... don't misunderstand me, we are just simply very good girlfriends :D

I have come to understand that life is not just about who love who more, or who don't love who anymore :) There's more things in it. Being single is not the end of the world. At least I get to go to places I wanted to go, I go to the movie I enjoy and I eat the food I like, I have more time for myself and family. 


And now my latest interest is to make myself healthier, prettier and happier : D 
I laugh out loud, I dance as much as I like, I play as much as I can : ) Enjoying my life to the fullest. Life has become more meaningful now,  I love the way it is and will keep it this way.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Cherish

Life is full of unpredictable things. Today you seem happy and healthy, tomorrow you might be in sick bed or upset or even dead.

If it wasn't due to Vertigo and drug allergy, I might not have realized a lot of things in life. Though I always cherish what I have but I never really appreciate each and every moment. I have learn to live my life as i have died before. I appreciate the kinship more than before. I love my loved ones more than before. 

Same goes to relationships. You never know what will happened next. Will you beloved cheat on you or betray you? Or even lost feeling in the relationships? It's sad really very sad. sigh... 

人生无常, 今日不知明日事。珍惜,珍惜。

4yrs coming.... but we just ended the relationship. He say lost feeling, and felt that I'm more like his best friend than lover. He says he tried but was hopeless. hahaha isn't that a joke?

Tried? tried what? Trying to avoid me? Trying to walk away from me every time I come close? Trying to show me his angry or impatience face? Trying to lie to me? So many trying..yes you tried but in a wrong way.

If you really tried, this will not be the outcome. If you tried you will have feel me, you will feel my love and you will not walk away. If you tried we have more years to count and celebrate, if only you have tried.

You say give us time to evaluate the relationship. Sorry, I do not need to evaluate coz I know I love you truly, I want and cherish this relationship. It's you yourself need to evaluate. Yes, evaluate how you treat your loved ones, how you make them feel. The problem is truly you yourself. Time,  I can give, 1 day, 1 week, 1 year or even longer no problem but I do not guarantee I will still be around/available by then. 

Nobody is perfect and I have love an imperfect person perfectly. What else can I do, I should be the one feeling hopeless. I have done whatever I could and I have pray whatever I can. Sigh..

You say can't give me happiness. I do not know what is your definition of happiness. To me it's simple, Happiness is someone that love and dote me till the end of day.

I do not see what will happened in future, but I know I will cherish every moment with that person who knows my heart and appreciate my doing.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

My Special day

Tomorrow will be a special day for me. It's not going to happened every year, that's why it make it so special tomorrow.

I called it 4 in 1 : ) Why? 
Not sure how many ppl know abt this, every 19 years your lunar birthday will fall on the same day as your actually birthday. So this year will be my 2nd ''lunar+western'' birthday on same day. Well, to be exact.. ya 19+19= 38. Yes, I'm 38 this yr :D

And 22nd April is also an earth day. Many ppl mistook it's as sometime in early April but no, the actually Earth day is 22nd April. : )

To add on to this special occasion, it's a GOOD FRIDAY! yeah, so it's 4 in 1 isn't it? haha maybe I over react, but to me it's really special. Just like some ppl whose BD falls on CNY or X'mas, I believe they will have the same special feeling like me : p

How am I going to celebrate? 
I don't know, really. I wanna feel happy and no disappointment. So I did not set any expectation or planning or celebration at all. No expectation = no disappointment, No disappointment = Happy.
I gonna have an open mind and open heart. Simple, just feel happy from this moment onwards and guess that's the best Birthday gift I have for myself. : )

Friday, March 25, 2011

我已不在乎了。

真真假假,我已经开始分不清楚。。。。也不想去分得清楚吧!

爱情没有谁付出得多或少。 每个人对爱情的看法都不一样,表达的方式也不一样。

以前,我会要求付出多少就要收回多少。现在,我已不在乎了。
只要自己做得对就好, 我任心无愧就好。

以前也都一直在想,我为什么要为他人而活。。。 现在,我也已不在乎了。
只要他人开心就好,施比受来得好,不是吗?

Love is Patient, 
Love is Kind, 
Love bears; Believes; Hopes; Endures All Things. 
Love never fails. 
1 Cor.13:4,7,8 

Friday, March 18, 2011

孤单的我

突然心情降了几级,好像突然回到了好几年前。。。 那么的陌生,那么的孤单。
走在拥挤的人群中,才发现自己是如此的寂寞。

好讨厌这种心情。悠郁不要再来好吗!

有人说:
“找一个比你更悠郁的人,然后告诉他:你别再悠郁了
或者找一个乐观的人和他聊天”

可我。。。真的什么都不想说。

有人说:
"看开点,不要那么执著”

我想再等等吧,或许真的会改便,或许雨后真的会有彩虹。

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Just a little thot

当你爱一个人的时候 他是个宝,当你不爱他时 他是根草。
This is a very true statement, when you love a person you can be such a darling & will give all you can. Giving her all sort of attention & pamper her. And painting all sort of nice pictures & promises. But when the moment you don't love her anymore she will be nobody & worthless to you. You will use what ever means words on her, hurt her & stay away from her.
就像一根针往你身上不停的刺, 很想把它恨恨的扒掉。。。 可悲。

Friday, September 24, 2010

Moving Moving Moving

I'm sick & tired of moving from 1 place to another.... I thot I finally got a job near my place, sigh who knows move again. This time to an unfamiliar, and quite place.. OMG!!!! IMO all the way : (
I was informed abt the move when 1st joined, but never in my mind this place could be so far & inaccessible. Beside the long journey to work, our lunch is a big headache too.. everyday packed lunch..eeeee...hurr... more than 8hrs in office still not enough, now must lunch in too...OMG OMG.. I want to scream. 

Maybe I'm suffering from some kinda "Enclosure Disorder", which I'm not aware until recently. I feel down, lost & desperate to get out of this place. I feel like I 'm in a jail, a cell or a cage. I going crazy soon. I wanted to cry, wanted to scream...I can't take it anymore... : ( but what else can I do?

Suddenly felt regrets ... sigh... what the point of regretting now, I kept telling myself to accept the fact & live with it. Depress....

How could this be? I kept thinking... last job was at Kaki Bukit then move to Changi & it took me quite awhile to get use to the environment & packed food. Now fr Macpherson moved to Pasir Panjang, aiyo.....some ppl told me here got nice food, bloody hell... where are all the nice food centre??? I dun even see a bird fly in lor.

Yes, we are blessed with free transport from Outram MRT. But have you even consider how early we have to wake up to catch the bus? And the journey back home, wow wow it's super long. Stuck in the jam for hrs from office to nearest MRT station, I almost thot that I'm working at Tuas or Jurong area.

Talking abt the packed lunch, yes it's free too. But the food is little & cold by the time it reached us. Feedback? Nobody bother at all, the old staff enjoyed the food for ages & they are so used to it. Why shld they change to suit us? I wonder how could they tolerate this kinda food all these years.

How long do I have to live with it? In dilemma again, shld I just quit or hang on & get use to it? Y LIKE THAT??? Frustrating.... desperate...stress...

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Faith

I'm so so..tired... Hang on Jess.. dun give up! Have faith Have faith... God always with me! He will strengthen me.

"Love is patient, Love is kind, Love beats all things. Believes, hopes & endures, love will never fails. " 1 Corinthians 13:4.7-8

Friday, July 16, 2010

A nice dinner cum catch up with Budd

Been busy lately but finally have a sense of belonging and clearer direction of where I am heading to. Life is full of up & down. I have been moving from one place to another, switching from one job to another. It's a nvr ending story... Sometimes do feel upset of what I am doing, but in order to fulfill my personal commitment I have to stride harder & move on. Nobody say life is easy, it's nvr easy but it's a matter of how we look at it and from which angle we are looking at it. Sometime I ask myself, is our life really of no choice, or we dare not make a choice?

As we grew older, we started to ponder on things that happened & things that would happen. But are we gonna sit on it & do nothing or we have to make a decision & move on? Sad to say that recently I have some frenz feel the same as what I experienced too. They have started to lost their direction, unclear of what they want & insecure of the future. Someone ever quote me this "You can't change the past, but you can change the present & make a difference in your future." That very true isn't it? It's really a matter of how we want to make the 1st move & how we want to take up the responsibility of the choice we made. I have made it, so have you?

Here, we made a choice to meet up too : ) Despite our busy schedules Budd & I will still find time to meet up for dinner. This is our friendship bonding that keep us together all these yrs. Even it's just a short catch up or chit chat or to discuss about our future plan : ) Really appreciated my dear friend. Same goes to any relationship. It's how much you want in a relationship? How much you value the relationship? The choice is yours : ) make it & move on.

Dinner at Breeks, haha again my suggestion coz I have a $10 voucher : ) My 1st time in Breeks, yes I'm not kidding. I like this place but no chance to walk in until today. The choice of food is quiet limited tho but I like the quiet embiance & also the choice of drinks : p
  My Cajun Blackened Fish, healthy meal : ) I like this dish. The fish not oily, well cooked pasta and everything was nice & perfect.
My dear Budd on strict diet, trying to shed off some extra kg..: D  so she has this Salmon salad, very healthy choice.
 Oh come on budd you are very slim liao. Pls keep to this weight & dun go further or else.. easy to fall down (head big, body small small) hahaha ...: D
And a healthy Avocado blend....eerrr...with a lil sinful ice-cream, chocolate & cream on top :D I love this drink. It just too hard to resist.. : p

Monday, June 21, 2010

St Theresa Church

Have passed by this Church a few times, the big & white building has captured my attention whenever passes by. And everytime I will have this thot " will I have a chance to drop by this Church & have a look inside?" 

The St Theresa Cathodic Church, located at Kampung Bahru Rd.

The chance came by last sat. It will be unpleasant if I have to say 'I felt delighted' as it's shld be a day of mourning. My boss's dad has just demise, and his wake was held in this Church.

The Church was indeed big & awesome. Together with a few Colleagues we went for the wake. The wake was conducted at 1 of the chapel, a peaceful & holy area for the deceased. It was also my 1st encounter in a Christian wake. Usually I would avoid attenting funeral coz I'm not good with comforting words. I might have ended up with "lost of words/speechless" when facing the family members.

Hope I would visit this Church again, but for a blissing & happy purposes.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Sunset

Beautiful Sunset during CNY reunion dinner. I love Sunset, it's always so beautiful but the moment is short. 夕阳无限好,可惜近黄昏。

Sunday, December 20, 2009

X'mas is just round the corner, have managed to done all my shopping, gift wrapping, and also getting ready for all the coming gathering. I love X'mas!

X'mas is also about loving & forgiving, as Christ so love us that he forgiven all our sin & sacrificed on the cross for us. Wish this X'mas bring us lots of loves & forgiveness.

I was reading a book [Live well, love much, laugh often] fr Apelles Poh a local author. There' a chapter he wrote about hatred & forgiveness has capture my thots, & I like this story. Let me share with you.

"The African bushman has an ingenious way of trapping monkeys. he would dig out a small hole in an earthen mould in full view of those curious creatures. In it, he would place some prized nuts & hide himself in the bushes. Inevitably, a monkey would be bold enough to come close to explore this interesting "set up". It would put its hand into the tiny hole & try to grab the free lunch inside. As he pulls out with his hand (now full of nuts), the monkey is caught as its fist is now larger than the hole. Its screaming, yelling, cringing & pounding soon attracts the attention of the bushman who quickly returns to catch the monkey.

Many of us are like the monkey. When we caught in the difficult & demanding situation of life, we too, would make "lots of noises". We curse & swear. We lament & regret. We blame & we shame. But are we helped by making such a din? Is there a better way?

Think abt it. If the monkey would only LET GO of the nuts in his hand, he would be free. No amt of screaming, yelling, pounding , cringing would set him free. Just let go, yes, of the past, the pain in the past & ppl who caused the pain in the past. "

Isn't true in our lives, forgive & forget make us feel better.

"Doing an injury puts you below your enemy; revenging one makes you even with him; forgiving sets you above him." - Benjamin Franklin.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Here I am to blog

After a long week of silence now I am more mentally calm to blog about. Been busy for the past weeks with work, study, frenz & family. Felt so stress out over some issues, and in dilemma for quite awhile.
Finally exam is over. I got least confident in passing tho....sigh..disappointed..: (
Work still struggling but I think I shld still hang on & look at the positive side.
Frenz meet up session still on going all the way til X'mas, I still have not prepare any x'mas gift yet. Guess this Sat will have to get it done.
Family, still need alot of care & attentions. How I wish I can be like "Monkey King" splits into 76 'Me' & attend to different ppl.
Relationship hoping for less argument & more compromise on Time management. Punctuality has been our issue all this while, I kn my tolerate level is really very very low for lateness. Time is precious to me, I don't waste a min but I can't have too high expectation on others. Patience, Patience & patience.
Years back I don't even watch movie I thot that was a waste of time seating in a theater for 3hrs looking at the screen. But these 2 yrs I have learned to accept & enjoy a few hrs movie. Hope things will change for the better.
Looking forward to X'mas, hope it's a beautiful one.An early X'mas greeting to all my friends, wishing upon a Star & May it bring you abundant of joys, sucess & blessed New Year!!!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

My 1st Run

My 1st ever 10k run. Nvr thot that I would signed up for this event, until my colleagues urged me into it. Supposed to have 3of us joining this race, Great Eastern Women's 10k, but due to work commitment 1 of us has to cancel so left the 2 ikan bilis here to con't the fighting spirit : )

Was having knee cap problem weeks before the race, I was kinda worried that I might not be able to make it on that day too. Thanks God, I did it & managed to complete the race in 1hr9m. It's a great achievement to me. I might be able to do better if not due to my knee problem at the last 500m. I actually limping thru the last few 100m & touched the finishing line.

Ofcoz back home with aches & pain at knee & got to secure it with knee guard for the time being. Hope it will recover soon. Not sure whether I will go for any more race, but at this moment I do felt self-satisfaction & I believe it's the endurance & perseverance tat kept me going, I am really glad I made it to the finishing line.


And thks Dar for the treat to Mac Bkf, & willing to scarifies his 'beauty' sleep & fetch me to & fro the race. If not for his encouragement & our weekly run I dun think I ever enjoy running so much.


Friday, October 30, 2009

What a bite!!!

These bites has been following me way back NZ months ago... it's really itchy & ugly & worst, no matter how hard I tried I still can't get ride of it. Been to clinic for many many times hopefully that it will really kill this damn sickening evil bugs.


Was told that this is not bed bug but sandflies... puzzled... it's winter there how to go beach & beaten by Sandflies??? But after some research I do agreed might be sandflies. Where it also called 'BlackFly' in NZ, or "namu' in Maori.



Anyway, Dr told me that there's still 'syringe' inside the bites so will take times to heal. Patience, patience... sigh..wat to do but to apply the cream diligently & on few medication to ease my allergy.


Warning! Pic might be gross!!!


4 on the right ankle subsided but 2 relapse after some time..: S and 1 more bite on my left ankle, total 5 bites. This is wat it looks like now for the 2 relapse on the right.




My 5 bites history:
  • Was damn itchy during my entire trip, Dar bot some antiseptics for me to apply.
  • Back to SNG, itchy persistence so bot more cream over counter to apply. Result: still the same, itch subsided & reappeared after 3days.
  • Buay tahan liao so visited clinic. Was given some medication and some 'better' cream to apply.
  • Name of cream: Neoderm (for insects bites).

2 weeks later....

  • Still itchy & looked swell... : (
  • So went to another clinic for better opinion. Got 1jabs on EACH bites, total 4 jabs on the right ankle : ( Left the clinic with a 'pig trotters' swell & pain)
  • Didn't jab the 1 on the left coz it's looks okie & nearly subsided.. (i tot)
1 month later......

  • The jabs worked, no more itch on the right ankle but my skin turned PALE white (like dead skin) horrible... since no more itch so I leave it as it is, thro looks ugly but better than itchy.
  • The left bite started to itch... OMG I shld have gave it a jab too.. regrets.
  • Went back to clinic, Dr said it's ok just con't the cream & medications.
  • apply... apply... & apply.
2 month later....

  • Right side seems ok, recovering soon. Happy & jolly : )
  • Left side bite grew slightly bigger... and itch, very itchy..
  • Clinic again, hoping to get a jab to settle it once & for all.
  • Dr advise not to jab, coz the bite has been there for too long. Another cream was recommended - Combiderm
  • apply ... apply... & apply...
another week later.....

  • Left side still itchy : (
  • Worst nightmare..Right side 2 of the bites suddenly became itchy again, & got kinda burning sensation.. worried me.
  • Dun wan to wait further, went to clinic again & asked for referral letter to National Skin centre.
  • Was told by Dr not to worry, coz this is still very minor so no need to go NSC. He told me this is more like a sandflies bite & the syringe of the insect has penetrated deep into my skin that is why all cream can only cover the surface & not beneath the skin.
  • Was given 2 types of cream, 1 to moisture & soften the 1st layer of skin. Then a 2nd cream to 'attack' deeper. Also some anti inflammation med & anti allergy med for my sensitive skin.

    I am now having... so many med lorh : (
    Gosh .. I really hope this time it will works & kill the "highly intelligent'' unknown insects : s Wat else can I do but to apply the cream diligently & guai guai take the med lor : (

Or maybe I shld try the Maori way : }


"Māori used crushed leaves of the ngaio tree (Myoporum laetum) to deter mosquitoes and sandflies. They also doused their bodies with oil, and with kōkōwai (red ochre) when working naked in the fields. To soothe itchy bites, they applied a juice made from crushed ngaio leaves or from fronds of rarauhe or bracken fern (Pteridium esculentum)."


And Prayer too

"My Lord, pls heal all the bites, let it subside & never come back again. By your grace, in Jesus name I pray. AMEN!!!"

Monday, July 20, 2009

Compromising or Not?

Is Compromising important in a relationship?
A frenz told me this, compromising is very tiring in a relationship, & rather choose to give up the relationship then compromising just to make his partner happy. He wish to find a perfect partner that no need to compromise. I was stunned by this remarks! How can a person be so arrogant and ego? I do not agreed with him, if he can't compromise then i wish that he remain single forever! I think it's not abt compromising but is more like he don't love his partner at all. Y don't they think abt how to manage or how to improve the relationship instead.

Dun understand how can there be no compromising? Even towards frenz or colleagues we at time need to compromise each other in order to get things done. Furthermore, this is toward someone you love. Unless you don't love he/her at all then will be different story.

Compromising is also a way to maintain the relationship & bring it to another level. If we keep thinking of finding a perfect partner, than how perfect is perfect if you can't even compromise?


I was also told that cohabiting was preferred too. I am not against cohabiting but somehow I feel that y need to cohabit when both already planned to live together, isn't going thru a legal marry is much better? To me, cohabiting = no commitment & irresponsible. I am not an old fashion person but sorry to say that I still feel that being cohabiting instead of marry is actually an act of irresponsible.

Y do ppl think of cohabiting in the 1st place? Coz they are afraid of commitment, they are worry that they will be tied down by his/her partner forever. Subconsciously, they are just trying to protect themselves from getting hurt and to avoid doing those 'paper' work if things don't work out. Don't you think that's selfish & irresponsible? They are just acting like an irresponsible Coward, can run away as & when they like.

In a relationship we must know what we want & not just 'qin cai, qin cai' find a partner just to past our time. That's wasting both party time & youth. 青春一去不回来!

There are so many ppl in this world, it's not easy for 2 person to come together & fall in love. We shld cherish & treasure every moment we have. Marry is not the end of ur world, it's beginning of another life with some1 you love!
Love is unselfishness, love is patient, love is kind, love endures all things.
I may not be the most suitable person to comment so much but at least I know how to love whole heartily, I appreciate and contented with what I have .
However, all the best to my frenz & I hope someday you will learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Beautiful Sky

Today the sky so beautiful, I just can't stop myself from taking few pic heheehehe... still waiting for the 'Ah Fat' A380 landing... will try to capture it kekekeke.. : }

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Thursday, March 26, 2009

動人的廣告

Today I received an email from a frenz, thot this was just another kinda chain mail... but when I finished reading & watched the video...WOW .. I was touched by the awesome story in this advertisment.
These two statements are my fav
"音樂,只要你閉上眼睛,就能看見"
"為什麼你要和別人一樣"

一個從小聾啞的女孩,懷揣著音樂的夢想長大,卻經常遭受姐姐的不屑與打擊。
正當她對自身的價值產生疑問的時候,一個流浪藝人告訴她:音樂,只要你閉上眼睛,就能看見。"
兩人同時入圍音樂節,由於嫉妒和害怕,姐姐在比賽前雇人摔壞了妹妹的小提琴,打傷了一直在教導妹妹的流浪藝人。

自以為陰謀得逞,但是妹妹仍然出現在比賽現場,飛揚的卡農從殘破的小提琴中破繭而出,震動了所有人的心。 這是一部相當完整的濃縮版電影,伏筆,發展,轉折,高潮,典型的人物性格,激烈的矛盾衝突,可以說一切符合戲劇的元素都在本片中一一呈現。

開場的悲劇化色彩濃烈,聾啞的小女孩和落魄的流浪藝人同樣都是悲劇的代表人物。
而最後的高潮運用了很多意象化的景物,曠野,蝶化,朝陽,都預示了一個新的方向。

極具衝擊力的運動鏡頭,充滿情緒化的蒙太奇剪輯手法,和引導人物命運的卡農樂曲,都給這部影片賦以激昂的史詩感。

片子雖然是潘婷的公益廣告,但與宣傳的商業主體已無多大關係了,全片揭示的是一個勵志主題:在困境中仍然能保持積極樂觀的人,才是一個真正的強者~~ 可是這個廣告折射人生